Steps of Grief

So I was reading this article that was discussing the steps of grief, and how you can experience them in any order.
The article listed them as denial, anger, bargaining, depression, and acceptance.

I can see how we go through each of these when we are grieving, but more to my point... Aren't these the steps of life? I feel a little of this every day. Denial that I need to exercise more often, anger when that one person rushed me, bargaining with myself over what I can and cannot do, depression that I didn't finish everything on my to do list quickly enough... acceptance that I'm doing the best I can.

So I'm just not sure why we aren't better equipped to handle grief. Why is it all so shocking still?

Weather:Whether

Weather or not... Whether or not...
Is that why we say that?
Because today's weather certainly could get me down. All grey and cloudy. It really is a good thing that my life is not dependent on the weather. Yet... at the same time it has such an impact doesn't it...
Today is a quiet thinking day perhaps. Yes. Mellow. Curl up and read a book. Maybe break out the hot chocolate. Build forts and nests of pillows. Yes. It's one of those days. Today is an ellipse...

Chocolate...

Here at my desk in my snack drawer... I now have a bag of chocolate covered almonds, Milano (Double Chocolate) Pepperidge Farm cookies, Double Dark Chocolate Nantucket cookies (also PF), pitted prunes, dried sweetened pineapple, a box of microwave popcorn, a single serving of oatmeal, Ritz crackers, candy corn pumpkins and some conversation hearts. . . . Oh and a Cadbury egg.

If we have a disaster... head for my "snack" drawer.

Create

I don't do many crafty things at the moment. A lot of that has to do with space. I don't really have the room to pull out the mountains of scrapbooking things I want to do... or the art supplies for sketching and maybe one day painting... not to mention a table I can sit at and sew with sunlight streaming in... I just don't really have the space. But recently Peter and I undertook a project that a friend of ours did first. Leah made this. And we blatantly copied her brilliant idea. With one addition. We laminated it.

As you can see, one side has a lighter outline so they can copy it and the other is blank so they can draw what they want. We're hoping one adorable little girl will really love this activity for her big 4th birthday coming up very soon. We're excited to give it to her to see... 

Indecision

All of me is indecisive.
Do I ? Do I not.
Also: I have no idea where I'll be in the next year, let alone 5 or 10. So don't even bother asking.

Moving

No. I'm not moving.
I'm still here.
But the thing is, it was pointed out to me recently....
that as adults making "decent" money, Peter and I have the option of looking into buying  a house.
This is weird.
Also... I don't think we can really afford a house in the area that we want to live in.
So there's that.
but the fact that it's an option... is just strange.

Motivation

I haven't exactly been motivated about blogging lately.
It's journaling with an unknown audience.
And so much of my life is already known.
Do more people really need to be thinking about me?
Do I need to be thinking more about me?
Instead of increasing my online presence, should I be eliminating it?
What would I do without all these gadgets i love so much?
What could I accomplish?

Today I paid off one of my very high interest loans.... and tomorrow I'm going to pay a huge chunk of another one.
I'm making my way towards being out of debt and independent financially. Should I be doing the same with technology?