A lot can happen...

I had a baby.

On January 28,2012 I gave birth to a beautiful little boy. And I love him. He's growing faster than I can comprehend. I haven't mentioned it before because of two reasons.
a. I miscarried previously so I'm a little gunshy about big announcements.
b. I do believe that my son should get to make his own digital persona one day.

I don't really know how to separate him from who I am now as a person. Like his father before him, he has completely changed who I am. I'm still trying to figure out where all the boundaries of sharing are going to be for me. I know that this learning process of being a new mom is very much about me, but it will always also be about him now. So bear with me as I try to figure this out.

I'm pretty sure he's doubled in size since we took this VERY goofy looking photo.

Happenings and Whatnots

I am entering the doldrums, I do believe...
I've recently reached a moment of completeness in the tasks I set for myself. And after a brief period of satisfaction, I find that I'm becoming bored. So, I'm going to have to find something else to keep me occupied. Maybe some arts and crafts... some regular cleaning and chores...a bit of TV watching... maybe some really good (complicated) meal planning...Maybe none of that. I'm just not sure what I want to do at the moment.
It's a nice problem to have.

The Holidays

The last few months have been... eventful. The combination of holidays and other life changing events made the time move right along. I also stopped reading blogs at work, which really put a dent in my writing time as well. Anyway, Christmas has finally come and gone. And I have lots of fun new things to use and find storage space for and enjoy. I've been very blessed and healthy this year. Things have occasionally been rough, but overall life is good. I am VERY lucky and I'm incredibly grateful for the life I've been able to make for myself. I hope that this next year is as generous in it's bounty...
I hope you've all had wonderful holidays and a great end to 2011.

Update.

I’m very slowly getting better at the waiting game. I just have to remind myself that eventually it will all pan out the way it’s supposed to happen. Right?

It is the way it is. Therefore that’s the way it should be. Until I change it. And then THAT’s the way it should be.

“It will be fine.”  That little phrase is my mantra… or my motto. I’m not sure which. I just know that it makes me feel better and calms me down when I start to freak out about possible negative outcomes. And as my husband will surely vouch, anything that calms me down is a good thing. I’ve been waiting to hear back on an interview I had last week. But in the mean time I’ve set up two more appointments this week for some other positions that look pretty good. I find that moving forward really helps me stay in a positive frame of mind. That and keeping busy at home.

So I’ve been working on making sure the little chores get done. Y’know, washing the dishes right after you use them… straightening up the room on the way out of it (our bedroom doesn’t ever seem to benefit here)…picking up little pieces of trash… putting away craft supplies when I’m done. I’ve been doing pretty well. I also went out the other day on my back porch and as I was standing there enjoying the sunshine I noticed that my mint plant (that I thought had completely died) actually had tiny little buds. It’s apparently been warm enough to be growing! 

My sister is coming to visit this week. J I’m hoping to have a few other friends over…. And maybe carve some pumpkins…I think that’s all I’ve got for now. What are you planning on for this week?

The wait is over.

I didn’t get it.

It’s such a long wait just to hear bad news… And I know I’m not the only one. Though to be honest being rejected from a job application isn’t nearly as bad as being rejected after an audition. There’s something cold and calculated about job hunting.

For example: In the last month I’ve gotten 3 interviews (none of which worked out) and applied for over 70 jobs. 20 of those went to other people. I had 30 applications left as of this morning. After I heard the bad/sad news I went and applied to 20 more jobs. It really is personal. So the only thing I can do to balance out the bad is create more opportunity for good to happen. It’s hard work job hunting. But I know the right/BESTEST job is out there just waiting for me.

It’s all just a statistics game. The more resume’s I send out, the more likely it is I’ll get an interview. The more I mention the fact I’m job hunting to people around me, the more I’ll be referred to likely offices. It’s a patience game. Last time it took me 6 months. I’m hoping for a little shorter time frame this time around, but I’ll take what I can get. 

And to be fair I'm only looking at the U. So it does narrow my options a bit. I'm trying to stay realistic and optimistic at the same time. It can be quite the balancing act some days.

Housewife-ish duties...

I am proud to announce that I’ve been AWESOME at making dinner this week. Well, at least at planning dinner. Peter may have made some of the meals… For those of you who care to know: Monday we had baked trout with a sour cream sauce, asparagus risotto, and sautéed broccoli. Tuesday we had leftover asparagus risotto, asparagus with hollandaise sauce, steak, and baked potatoes. Wednesday we had baked parmesan chicken, baked potatoes, and sautéed garlic spinach.  I’ve been trying to limit my carbs… can you tell? And tonight… maybe fajitas. Without tortillas.

Nope. Scratch that. Peter will go grab some tortillas so we can do fajitas! Hurrah!

Anyway… the rest of the week is probably going to be all over the place due to Peter going to the “Game in a Day” competition at GEEX. I wish I could go too, but I have to work. L And now that our basement is all patched and repainted, I have major plans for moving furniture. If I can finagle it I want to make it to IKEA as well. I’m not sure that’s going to be manageable though. We’ll see. I still haven’t heard anything on the job front. It’s only been a week though. I’m trying to minimize the possible damage by imagining that I didn’t get the job. That and I’m continuing to apply for other positions. I’m still hoping I got it… but … that’s … yeah. It makes me too anxious to think about it at this point.

So I’m going to plan about reorganizing furniture, finally (maybe) hanging pictures, sleeping in, going to the library, and generally not doing anything else this weekend. What are your grand plans for the weekend?

Still...

I wish I had awesome news on the job front. Unfortunately I'm still waiting to hear.
On the upside, the interview did go really well. But then, I've always interviewed well. So I never know really what to take away from that. Hopefully I'll hear something by tomorrow.