Update.

I’m very slowly getting better at the waiting game. I just have to remind myself that eventually it will all pan out the way it’s supposed to happen. Right?

It is the way it is. Therefore that’s the way it should be. Until I change it. And then THAT’s the way it should be.

“It will be fine.”  That little phrase is my mantra… or my motto. I’m not sure which. I just know that it makes me feel better and calms me down when I start to freak out about possible negative outcomes. And as my husband will surely vouch, anything that calms me down is a good thing. I’ve been waiting to hear back on an interview I had last week. But in the mean time I’ve set up two more appointments this week for some other positions that look pretty good. I find that moving forward really helps me stay in a positive frame of mind. That and keeping busy at home.

So I’ve been working on making sure the little chores get done. Y’know, washing the dishes right after you use them… straightening up the room on the way out of it (our bedroom doesn’t ever seem to benefit here)…picking up little pieces of trash… putting away craft supplies when I’m done. I’ve been doing pretty well. I also went out the other day on my back porch and as I was standing there enjoying the sunshine I noticed that my mint plant (that I thought had completely died) actually had tiny little buds. It’s apparently been warm enough to be growing! 

My sister is coming to visit this week. J I’m hoping to have a few other friends over…. And maybe carve some pumpkins…I think that’s all I’ve got for now. What are you planning on for this week?

The wait is over.

I didn’t get it.

It’s such a long wait just to hear bad news… And I know I’m not the only one. Though to be honest being rejected from a job application isn’t nearly as bad as being rejected after an audition. There’s something cold and calculated about job hunting.

For example: In the last month I’ve gotten 3 interviews (none of which worked out) and applied for over 70 jobs. 20 of those went to other people. I had 30 applications left as of this morning. After I heard the bad/sad news I went and applied to 20 more jobs. It really is personal. So the only thing I can do to balance out the bad is create more opportunity for good to happen. It’s hard work job hunting. But I know the right/BESTEST job is out there just waiting for me.

It’s all just a statistics game. The more resume’s I send out, the more likely it is I’ll get an interview. The more I mention the fact I’m job hunting to people around me, the more I’ll be referred to likely offices. It’s a patience game. Last time it took me 6 months. I’m hoping for a little shorter time frame this time around, but I’ll take what I can get. 

And to be fair I'm only looking at the U. So it does narrow my options a bit. I'm trying to stay realistic and optimistic at the same time. It can be quite the balancing act some days.

Housewife-ish duties...

I am proud to announce that I’ve been AWESOME at making dinner this week. Well, at least at planning dinner. Peter may have made some of the meals… For those of you who care to know: Monday we had baked trout with a sour cream sauce, asparagus risotto, and sautéed broccoli. Tuesday we had leftover asparagus risotto, asparagus with hollandaise sauce, steak, and baked potatoes. Wednesday we had baked parmesan chicken, baked potatoes, and sautéed garlic spinach.  I’ve been trying to limit my carbs… can you tell? And tonight… maybe fajitas. Without tortillas.

Nope. Scratch that. Peter will go grab some tortillas so we can do fajitas! Hurrah!

Anyway… the rest of the week is probably going to be all over the place due to Peter going to the “Game in a Day” competition at GEEX. I wish I could go too, but I have to work. L And now that our basement is all patched and repainted, I have major plans for moving furniture. If I can finagle it I want to make it to IKEA as well. I’m not sure that’s going to be manageable though. We’ll see. I still haven’t heard anything on the job front. It’s only been a week though. I’m trying to minimize the possible damage by imagining that I didn’t get the job. That and I’m continuing to apply for other positions. I’m still hoping I got it… but … that’s … yeah. It makes me too anxious to think about it at this point.

So I’m going to plan about reorganizing furniture, finally (maybe) hanging pictures, sleeping in, going to the library, and generally not doing anything else this weekend. What are your grand plans for the weekend?

Still...

I wish I had awesome news on the job front. Unfortunately I'm still waiting to hear.
On the upside, the interview did go really well. But then, I've always interviewed well. So I never know really what to take away from that. Hopefully I'll hear something by tomorrow. 

Moving on up. I hope.

There are things in life that we just can’t control.

I can accept that. I deal with it rather well in fact.

My personal mantra just happens to be, “It will all be okay.”

From my point of view: One way or another the end results will be survivable. Even death.

But the little things in life that we can control are numerous. We make small decisions and big decisions every day. I’ve decided that I need to find a new job that will work better with my family life. That is my decision. SO the frustrations that come with job hunting are my fault. And at any point I could change my mind and decide to keep my current job. Nothing is forcing me to change. I am choosing my change. That is the way that I’m comfortable living my life. I move forward at my pace and I hope that I make the best decisions possible. But sometimes when I’m standing at the edge of the unknown (or just prior to a job interview tomorrow) staring into the abyss of change, sometimes I wonder why I do this to myself.

Then I remember that coasting along isn’t fun. It’s not easy. I don’t grow that way. I don’t progress in life. I stagnate. I’ve gone about as far as my current job will take me. I need something more. So I’ll take a step into the darkness and see which direction the path leads. If I proceed with caution, hopefully it won’t be over a cliff.